Since it's the holiday, or rather recess week, it's good to take a moment to sort out my life. Gonna be long, just a sketch of my life. More for myself to read though haha.

PIANO

Since I was young I badly wanted to learn how to play a piano... But I only started learning when I was 13. Sigh. I didn't have a piano then, so my teacher gave me a long paper keyboard so I practised on that and imagined it was a real piano... And yes like you and me, we all started off with "Mary Had a Little Lamb" and "Happy Birthday".

My mum was the one who got me started, she's always supportive of me learning piano... She was the one who bought me my current 2nd hand piano at $5k+. It was a big risk considering I may discontinue learning after a while. But I didn't cos I really love the piano.

A few years back, my dad told me he actually named me after a pianist in church. I was very surprised. I hope I can serve God in this area... But currently no plan as in how to.

Plan to take my Grade 6 theory and practical next year. Skip Grade 7 practical and jump to Grade 8 the following year... If $$$ allows, I'll take Diploma.

CELLO

When I was 15, there was an open door for me to play the cello in my school's Chinese Orchestra. They were looking for just ONE more person. Word spread to me and I joined since the thought of learning an instrument for FREE was very tempting.

Involved in SYF and stuff but couldn't play well cos they didn't grill on the basics.

Used to have casual thoughts of me playing in an "ang moh" orchestra, just a day-dream at that time cos the vision was too far-fetched.

When our church formed an orchestra and performed @ Expo for the 1st time, I was thrilled. I couldn't keep my eyes off the cellists cos I wanted to be playing with them. Never did I know that some of them were actually Elgin and Lisa.

Got Steph to get me a Cello teacher since she was in NAFA. Bought a $1.3k cello and paid my monthly fee out of my own pocket. It was a big sacrifice considering I was/am not that rich. He taught me from SCRATCH and I'm very thankful for his patience with me. :)

Emailed Tat Haur that I wanted to join the orchestra and he invited me to join them. Very thankful for this opportunity since I couldn't even play decently. Always "kena-ed" from Eric and there was a period where I rejected my cello totally, didn't even wanna see it.

That was the beginning.

When I got into NUS, I so wanted to join NUSSO. To my utmost surprise, I passed the audition and got in. But I'm not sure if I'm up to it. :(

Yes now I've fulfilled my dream of playing in an "ang moh" orchestra. Truly if you can see it, you can have it. No matter how silly you feel at first for even imagining it.

Upcoming events:
- Service performance on 3rd wk of Oct
- Nov Asia Conference
- NUS Quartet busking during Xmas period

 NUS-NURSING

Whenever I passed by the highway next to NUS, I always wish I could study there one day. What attracted me were the running tracks and volleyball courts. I'm really happy to be studying there now.

In my 2004 July/August entry, I wrote that I wanted to be either a nurse or a counselor in future. In fact now I can be both. Haha. Thought of becoming a doctor too because the thought of working in an operating theatre is quite cool. But of cos my results were nowhere near fantastic. I still have a chance to work in an OT though. Hehe.

Most importantly, I want to spread the love of God to those who need it most and to be a bearer of God's light in people's darkest moments.

CHURCH

When I was 14, beloved CAI kept "pestering" me to go church with her. Man... How she was good in it. I didn't even know her personally then... I didn't even know how I actually know her. But in secondary school, everybody knew everybody somehow.

She "pestered" till I was nearly 15. When church first moved to JW, I finally went. But on the first day, I went ALONE cos I couldn't find CAI!!! (And I didn't have a HP then...) I was quite scared, I CRIED!!!! HAHA. 2 ushers escorted me to a seat in a corner.

New friend abandoned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahaha...

But that day was a very significant day in my life. That day changed my entire life, it was the turning point of my life. I experienced the most wonderful love of all.

Yes and all these years I've been avoiding a calling - to be a cgl. I'm actually thankful to a special person who awakened my soul. Not sure "special" is the most appropriate word to use though.

Yes so now I got my direction and I'm working towards it. Slowly but surely. Thanks to MC and KL for being so supportive and to Shing who gives me the opportunity to.

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So yes, this is roughly the plan and outlook of my life at this moment. Feel good to write them down. :)